it's sunday night

and i'm sitting in bed while my husband drifts off into la la land. i'm jealous. i desperately want to shut off my laptop, turn off the lamp, and settle down into a deep sunday sleep. but, alas, i'm anxiously awaiting an e-mail reply. i feel like a schoolgirl...

i've made friends with someone whom i think is way cool and funny and smart. someone with whom i can talk intelligently about film and academia and life. we've exchanged e-mail over the last couple of weeks and i've come to realize that he's very receptive and reciprocal to e-mail, myspace, or facebook conversations -- which is good fun (god, i never thought i'd hear myself say that...or see myself type it for that matter). so, here's the deal...

he's gay, which makes him ultra safe! here we are: a married straight woman and a single gay man (who, by the way, is one of my instructors at school). who could ask for a more perfect friendship than that? i'm excited and giddy about getting to know this person strictly as a friend. and he's a man...how awesome is that?! i don't have to worry about whether he thinks i like him or vice versa, it is pure friendly fun. which brings me back to my first point...

i'm sitting here anxiously awaiting an e-mail from my new friend, but nothing has arrived yet. i feel as though i'm waiting by the phone for a call from "that cute guy," but instead, i'm waiting at the laptop -- occasionally checking my inbox for a bolded message, but nothing. i look forward to exchanging e-mails with him -- it's like receiving a real letter in the mail! i think he's very insightful and i feel as though i can say anything back to him and not be self conscious about it.

wow, what's going on here?

i think i need a pen pal...

i need to get a grip and go to sleep.

but, before i do that, i'm going to share my shuffle with you (which looks as though it has been relegated to sunday instead of friday -- i'll see what i can do about that).

dance to the music:

1. "Spread" - Outkast
2. "Ebudae" - Enya
3. "Take Your Carriage Clock And Shove It" - Belle & Sebastian
4. "Everything In Its Right Place" (BBC Remix) - Radiohead
5. "Everest" - Ani DiFranco
6. "Backdrifts (Honeymoon Is Over) - Radiohead
7. "Career Opportunities" - The Clash
8. "Tvc 15" - David Bowie
9. "Mike Mills" - Air
10. "Seven Nation Army" - The White Stripes

peace out.

sugar water

i just saw this video for the first time this week and am continually amazed at michel gondry's talent. check it out for yo'self.

shuffling a friday to a sunday and a couple of nonsensical blabberings - don't mind me

i know, i know, everyone is busy, i'm not the only one. but, i really am up to my ears with school, home, family, internship, life, you name it...

and i feel this insane pressure to do everything perfectly and on time. yes, i am feeling sorry for myself.

starting a blog was supposed to be fun and therapeutic, but i'm feeling stressed and this weird pressure to keep up with it. and i shouldn't. but, i am determined to not give up on it. so, here is a post on a sunday night when i should be doing one of these instead:

1. reading
2. researching
3. cleaning
4. anything other than sitting in front of the computer looking at boots online and driveling on about how i'm soooooo busy

there is one bright spot. a light at the end of the tunnel if you will. i'm shooting my student film tomorrow and hoping the weather cooperates. i've been pretty nervous and excited about it, but tomorrow is the day. pretty jazzed that i'm getting real hands-on experience with 16mm cameras. wish me luck.

i'm also interning at an independent film company in san francisco and it's pretty exciting stuff. i'll go into more detail later, but suffice it to say, i'm enjoying being part of a grassroots effort despite the stress and pressure.

is there a theme going on here? why, yes there is. it's called: stress and pressure.

okay, that's enough. i'm through with that now.

should go and attempt to do one of the things on my list above. but before i go, here is my friday shuffle on a sunday. behold:

1. "Sweet Jane" - Cowboy Junkies
2. "Feeling Good" - Bobby Darin
3. "High As The Ceiling" - Stereophonics
4. "Pigs In Zen" (live) - Jane's Addiction
5. "Northern Whale" - The Good, The Bad & The Queen
6. "A Message" - Coldplay
7. "Any Way You Want It" - Journey
8. "Garageland" - The Clash
9. "I Go Humble" - Bjork
10. "Gnossienne 5" - Amarcord Wien

there you have it.